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I do not know how to describe my feeling now..

What can I say is: I feel badly~

I feel not happy, and also....a bit angry..

Why??

Last semester result was announce yesterday,

and my result, not bad,

maintain the level I hope..

Then, I think to log in my dear's portal to check his result,

but I failed to log in..

Maybe at the time many UUM student log in portal to check their result,

so I wait until today only go to have a look..

My dear had call me and told me that his result is bad,

he said he had try his best..

He ask me do not discuss with him about his result,

and I also promise he..

But when I saw his result,

I really get a shock..

I do not know what can I do now,

this already is our last semester,

he has no chance to improve his result..

I'm angry why he can get a result such like this,

I feel badly because his result really bad..

But, what can I do?

I had already promise he would not talk about his result,

I just can pretend nothing..

I do not know whether you will read my blog or not,

have a long time you did not read my blog already..

But I hope you understand,

I not blame you at here,

I also not angry you..

I just feel unhappy when saw your result,

but no way can let me release my feeling,

so I come here to write a blog..

I'm remember what I had already promise you,

and I also would not talk so much in front you..

But you also must promise me,

try your best for your last semester in UUM..

If you still fail to do also never mind,

I will always stand beside you,

forever and ever..

So, you must put effort in your last semester,

and our future, ok?

by shin,

10/1/2011 4.05pm

I miss...

Such a long time did not update my blog..

Well, now already 2011 year,

a new year, new journey and new hoping for everyone..

 And for me,

I wish that my life in 2011 year can go smoothly,

and my family can stay healthy and happily forever,

all dream of my dear and his family can come true..

First at all, I haven go back study yet..

Because of flood, 

my uni deferred the study period..

So, left 1 more week then I need go back study,

it's means I only left 1 weeks for relax..

my 2 sisters already go for study,

one at UPM, and another at NEC,

wish them all things can go smoothly..

This few day keep thinking about the time when we still are kids,

all of us stay at home, 

not like now separate at different place..

I miss the time we gather at home,

even sometime we will quarrel,

but most the time we had fun and laugh always..

We chat, we play and even we "zat" each other..

But now, all of us were grew up,

separate at different place for studying,

no much time we stay at home..

So, our home is become more silent,

not like before always noisy..

I know you guys will know I am talking about us when read my blog,

so can we come a promise..?

When we are finish study and work at different place,

or even next time we have our own family,

we must arrange sometime for gather together, ok?

Even how we busy for work, or busy for our own family,

just come a gather each year..

If you guys agree, then don't forget it..

I'll always waiting for you guys..

by shin,

8/1/2011 4.57pm

终于完成了~

呼~呼~

好不容易，该整理的地方都整理好了，

该丢的东西，也全都丢了。

真的是，累死我了~

前几天突然决心来个大扫除，

整理房间、书房和工厂楼上的房间。

这可以说是一个“浩大的工程",

因为我和妹妹的东西真的很多！

有用的、没用的东西买了一大堆，

再加上平时我们都懒得整理，

所以，房间、书房和工厂楼上的房间，

真的是乱倒。。无话可说~

 连续三天，我们才清除所有垃圾，

收好还有用的东西。

现在，可以说是焕然一新~

整理的时候， 发现了很多以前买的东西，

还有一些不懂何时遗忘的东西。

然后，就会很茫然的说：

“这是我的吗？几时买的哦？”

或是“原来XXX在这里。”

就好像是在寻找宝物似的，

找回了很多以前买的东西，

而这些东西，现在已经不喜欢，或者没有用了。

所以，全部都丢掉，

丢着丢着，才发现以前真的买了很多无谓的东西，

这个时候才察觉到，以前真的很浪费！

还傻傻的想：要是没买这些东西，或许现在就有一笔钱了。

哈哈~这是不可能的啦~

因为我们太会买东西了，就算没把钱用在这，

我们也会花在其它地方。

唉，现在是整理好了，

但不知几时又会弄乱咧~

不过，能的话就好好维持吧！

因为我不想再整理第二轮了~

by shin,

22/12/2010 5.50pm

情

最近最轰动的新闻，莫过于江世丰为情所困，自杀身亡。

其实他死之前po了一篇遗书在FB，

我有看到，以为只是一篇对分手了的女生说说气话，

哪知第二天就从报纸上看到，他真的自杀了！

第一个反应，我真的有被吓倒。

虽然我不认识他，但也希望他能振作，继续生活下去，

分手罢了，其实真的没什么大不了。

然后，FB自然的就出现很多关于他的page了。

我差不多一一的去看了，不管是他朋友在blog写了对他的思念，

还是局外者写下对他的看法，甚至很多人开了悼念他的page。

很自然的，FB就出现了很多声音，

有支持他的，也有辱骂他，看不起他的。

说真的，如果有人问我有什么意见，

我会说，我同情他被女友甩，也明白他的心情，

但我不赞同他的做法。

爱情，只是生活中的一部分，

就算在这一秒失去了爱情，下一秒可能就会遇到属于你的幸福。

就算不被珍惜，我们也要学会爱惜自己。

只是，这些道理他都不懂~

或许大家对爱情的价值观不同吧！

但怎样都好，局外人根本不应该加以批评，

因为根本不知道事情的真相，却一直很有道理的说这说那。

往往悲剧发生后，就会有很多不同的声音，

但死者已矣，在说这些又有什么用呢？

与其在一旁加油添醋，说着一堆大道理，

倒不如什么都不说，去做一些有意义的事。

虽然我不赞同江世丰的做法，但我更加讨厌那些局外人，

在旁说三道四的，自以为自己很了不起。

有谁是不懂道理的，但如果事情是发生在自己身上，

就算在有道理的话，我相信谁也听不进去。

这些人，根本就是闲着没事！

我并不是要批评什么，也不赞同什么，

只是觉得身为局外人的我们，应该收敛一点，

不要一直讨论这件事，让这起悲剧更加多是非。

by shin，

12/12/2010 5.00pm

disappointed

Since last night I receive a call from my mom,
my mood already had been destroy.
Well, the same problem occur, she crying again.
OK, what the problem for this time?
SAME answer >> stress.
And today morning, I receive her message again.
The same thing she find me,
normally I will try to help her,
but today, I really very angry.

I do not know what can I do already,
all can I do I had already done for her,
but then, what that I get?
Still the same, never change, never improve.
Every time waiting helping from others,
every time only know to run away when face problem,
every time also blame this, blame that,
never feel she is the fault one.
Every time call back home,
sure telling about she is suffer,
feel stress on her assignment and exam.

For YOU!
I really do not know how can I help u already!
Every time u face problem and find me,
I also try my best to help u,
even I do not have any knowledge about your course.
But you never change your attitude,
I so disappointed on that.
Start from the day you go study, until today,
already4 months++, you still the same.

You not only feel stress to face your problem,
you also bring whole family into your situation,
make us feel stress together with you.
How we done for you also not use,
you never satisfied and appreciate our effort.
Did you think all we done for you is our responsible?
We give the best for you, but what your respond?

We already grew up, you know?
Now we need to responsible to our own life,
not like child, everything daddy & mommy will do for you.
We need to try make decision by own self,
also need to plan for our future,
and try to solve the problem by our own self.
Yes, I admit you can consult with us when you really can't solve the problem,
but what we can do only giving you opinion and the method,
you still need to complete it by yourself.
We can help you in the first time, the second time,
but we can't help you in your whole life.
I really think that study not a hard thing,
just you want to study or not,
unless you are an idiot.

I am speechless already,
I nothing can say because what i say you also won't understand.
I do not know what you want to do after,
and I also do not know what I want to do for you after this.
Last word, please be mature!
Please think the way you want & responsible on your decision.
If you don't want help yourself,
in this world, nobody can help you already.

by shin
24/11/2010 3.28pm

just finish first paper in this morning

Long time did not update my blog.
And today, some feeling bring me come to here.
Well, start my final exam today,
my first paper >> Investment Analysis,
no eyes to see...haihz~~
I have study hard and try to understand it,
but when I sit in the exam hall,
my eyes looking at the question paper,
I only realize that actually I'm not GENIUS!
Study in last minute not helpful in my exam.
But what can I do???
I just can using my little knowledge,
"make stories" in the exam hall...
And I had lost 21 marks in overall,
because I left 2 question in blank,
I totally do not know how to answer that 2 question...

And the next, Trade & Finance + Marketing Service,
but I haven start study yet.
I really feel lazy to study,
my mind is thinking about shopping.
Yeah! My mind all is SHOPPING!
I want buy cloths! I want watch movie!
I want walk around everywhere with relax feeling,
& without annoying by BOOK!
I believe it all not far from me,
10 more days, I can back to my home again.
Even at that time I still have 2 paper on going,
but I think I have lost all the study mood.

And now, I am killing by book.
I only finish one paper,
still have 5 more waiting for me.
Better find back the study mood,
keep fighting for my exam,
then go shopping...

by shin,
23/11/2010 3.24pm

闷闷的心情

今天的心情闷闷地~不懂为什么，可是心情就是很down。前两天他告诉我，有一个朋友要搭我的车回学校，他说那个朋友买不到20多号的巴士票。唉~当下听了就很不开心，因为有有人来占便宜了。然后，他就一直安抚我，说那个朋友不是特地站我们便宜啦等等。其实我不是很想载其他人咯，总觉得载了一次，就会有第二次。可是他却一副很想载的样子，我不想搞到天怒人怨，只好答应咯。

本来我是没有去想，可是不懂为什么今天满脑子都在想这件事。我在想，真的有酱巧吗？我还没有拿车去学校时，每个人都能买到票。可是，在我拿车去学校后，就会有人买不到票，要搭我的车。我心里真的很怀疑，真的有那么巧吗？可是，没有人可以给我答案。

我不喜欢被人占便宜的感觉，真的很讨厌！我不想做坏人，不想讨厌任何人。可是，偏偏他们就是要来惹我，要来占我的便宜，搞到我真的对他们很反感。我很想拒绝所有人，可是又怕被别人讲我骄傲，自以为有车就了不起。到底有谁可以来教教我该怎么做？arghhhhhh~

by shin
11/11/2010 4.22pm