disappointed

Since last night I receive a call from my mom,
my mood already had been destroy.
Well, the same problem occur, she crying again.
OK, what the problem for this time?
SAME answer >> stress.
And today morning, I receive her message again.
The same thing she find me,
normally I will try to help her,
but today, I really very angry.

I do not know what can I do already,
all can I do I had already done for her,
but then, what that I get?
Still the same, never change, never improve.
Every time waiting helping from others,
every time only know to run away when face problem,
every time also blame this, blame that,
never feel she is the fault one.
Every time call back home,
sure telling about she is suffer,
feel stress on her assignment and exam.

For YOU!
I really do not know how can I help u already!
Every time u face problem and find me,
I also try my best to help u,
even I do not have any knowledge about your course.
But you never change your attitude,
I so disappointed on that.
Start from the day you go study, until today,
already4 months++, you still the same.

You not only feel stress to face your problem,
you also bring whole family into your situation,
make us feel stress together with you.
How we done for you also not use,
you never satisfied and appreciate our effort.
Did you think all we done for you is our responsible?
We give the best for you, but what your respond?

We already grew up, you know?
Now we need to responsible to our own life,
not like child, everything daddy & mommy will do for you.
We need to try make decision by own self,
also need to plan for our future,
and try to solve the problem by our own self.
Yes, I admit you can consult with us when you really can't solve the problem,
but what we can do only giving you opinion and the method,
you still need to complete it by yourself.
We can help you in the first time, the second time,
but we can't help you in your whole life.
I really think that study not a hard thing,
just you want to study or not,
unless you are an idiot.

I am speechless already,
I nothing can say because what i say you also won't understand.
I do not know what you want to do after,
and I also do not know what I want to do for you after this.
Last word, please be mature!
Please think the way you want & responsible on your decision.
If you don't want help yourself,
in this world, nobody can help you already.

by shin
24/11/2010 3.28pm